So I am back home in Canada now. Was a sudden decision to return, with a few different contributors, but am home and am happy with how things have turned out. My time in Oz was amazing, a great adventure that I will never forget, but it is definitely time for me to get back to business in TO. I have decided to continue my blog, even though I am no longer in Oz.

Part of getting back to business included coming back to someone that I was dating before I left. I met Mr. Toronto about 2 months before I left and we really hit it off. We didn’t get serious b/c we both knew that I was leaving, but I did develop feelings for Mr. Toronto and was looking forward to a reunion.

Anyway, since leaving Toronto we have continued to talk, text and have a few phone calls. Its been tricky, as it is when you are trying to communicate with someone who is living on the other side of the world, but we were always in contact. We were not committed and were free to date others, which I did, but there was always some affection shared and a common thought that if we were both single when I got back we would go out and see how we felt. 

Approx. two weeks ago Mr. Toronto and I had a great conversation. I told him I would be home no later than three weeks from then and he was happy. He told me that he was excited to see me, wanted to take me out, was offering to look at apartments if I needed him to and was just being generally sweet. It was nice. I was thinking he would be something fun to come back to and begin life back in TO with.

So today, when I finally get a facey message from him, he seemed a little aloof. Alarm bells go off, as they do when a gal knows something is not right. After about six emails back and forth today, he comes clean and tells me that he is “seeing someone, not seriously though”. Like what does that mean? are you seeing someone or not, are you pursuing a relationship with someone else you met in the last two weeks or aren’t you?? I don’t get it! Im a little annoyed b/c im not sure why after over six months of being away he decided now was a good time to start dating someone else. After reminding him of our last conversation and stating my confusion, I got an answer of “it wasn’t planned, they had only been out twice and it wasn’t serious” Again, my mind races back to, “well are you dating her or not??” 

 I just don’t get it.

I am happy to get back to TO, get out on the scene, and hopefully meet a new leading man, but it’s never as easy as it seems and I kinda thought it would just be nice to have someone to be excited about upon my return. What I want to know is, why continue talking to someone for six months only to change your mind two weeks away from her return and begin to “not seriously” date a random b-road from highschool (apparently)??

So needless to say, I didn’t write back. I wasn’t sure if he was trying to tell me that he still wanted to see me and that him and this girl weren’t serious, that he wanted me to wait around, or that he didn’t want to talk to me anymore. None of the above options gelled well with me and have left me feeling a little bit down. I was thinking of writing back to see if I could gather more information in hopes to understand what the H had happened and if he actually wanted to pursue a relationship with this b-road but didn’t. I did want answers but took a road less travelled by myself and decided that this would give him too much power over the situation. Im going to try to hold out and ignore him; im never very good at this trick, but am going to give it a good old fashioned try.

me no likey. im a bit sad today AND its cold here! maybe im being punished for something.

xoxo,

GDU